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so I spent the better part of last night tossing and turning in bed. for the life of me I couldn't get to sleep. was it the caffine at 430 or maybe the work I did cleaning my messy bedroom? I don't know, but right now im basically going insane, as I've been awake for 26 hours. I hope I will pass out soon after getting home. the girlie is suppose to bringing me coffee but I ont think my stomach could handle it. oh well, that this crazy orning shift shit.
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[05 Jan 2006|02:36pm] |
So, hello everyone, it's been awhile, as usual, but i decided to update finally.
So, Xmas eve, went to Craguns Resort with ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) amantevida and her family. We went snow mobiling, and stayed in a very nice room, had a fireplace, and a hot-tub (which we never used)
I got some nice stuff, a Sauder Computer Desk w/Hutch, and a 80GB external Hardrive. It was fun, and was nice to get away.
So, anyways, here is my top 10 MUST have Free Palm/Treo Utilities, In no particular order...
1. TCPMP The Core Media Player( Details )
2. DioPlayer Free MP3/Wav Player
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3. AvantGo Offline web browsing(downloads on sync)
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4. Head Cold A utility to redirect mp3 output to the headphone jack, or the speakerphone (The treo usually defaults to speakerphone)
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5. BrightCam Change backlight and volume depending of how noisy or dark/light it is
6. Keepoff Will lock the touch screen, and button presses until the power button is tapped (great if its always in your pocket)
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7. PowerUP Powers up the radio after a reboot/crash, etc
8. NoMountSwitch When you insert a SD/MMC card, it wont autoswitch to the palm side of the phone.
9. LEDoff Lets you control when and why the status light blinks.
10. Today Gives you a status screen of upcoming events, current todo's, and any missed calls, text messages.
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| Happy Happy, Joy Joy |
[10 Nov 2005|04:03am] |
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So, lots of stuff has happened in my life, since the last update. First off, vacation was frickin' sweet. I didn't think I needed a vacation when we started, but, oh boy was is nice to get away from everything, so just me and the girlie could spend some quality time with each other...she will make a great wife someday.
So, got back from vaca, and was told @ work we are getting Pay By Touch at work. We'll it was installed today, and it's pretty cool, kinda weird to pay with your finger, but I'm sure in a few months it will be like we always had it. Work has been boring lately, but the helpdesk guy at farmfresh clued me in about an IT job supervalu corp is hiring for, so I'll get my shit together, and try to get it. I really need to get my shit together, as I no longer have an excuse to NOT to. Obviously, my goal is to do something with computers, but for some reason I don't. This needs to change NOW, and I mean NOW. Geeksquad, IT job, whatever I just need to get my shit together, for both me and the girlfriend. She certainly deserves more from me then what I have given her in the last 2 and a half years. Anyways....
Went to the assume pink floyd show a few days ago, and it was AWESOME. I've always wanted to see pink floyd, but of course, there is no pink floyd anymore, so this is certainly the next best thing.
Ok goals to complete in before the end of the year:
1> Apply to 10 computer related jobs.
2> Get my resume in order
3> Quit smoking pot, and cigs.
4> Be more available for my girl, emotionally
5> Set up a 5 year plan with myself, and my girl
These are 5 things I needed to do a long tIme ago, just needed a kick in the ass, which I got recently.
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| Another Wacky Trip |
[24 Oct 2005|01:30am] |
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So, left for vacation on thursday night after work, and boy, what a trip it was. So, christna drove the first 6 hours, , until the nebraska border. Then I took over for the next wimpy 3 hours, and allowed the girlie to get some sleep. she then took over and we switched back and forth. By the time we got to salt lake city, i drove 6 hours, and the girlie drove 12 (what a trooper!) In the midst of the chaos of being tired, and such, i lost the gas credit card, BLAH!, so I guess we need to use our TCF cards. So we went to salt lake city, and decided that it was a good point to get a room, and sleep, and sleep we did, i think we slept for like 8 hours, but we slept very hard, it was very nice. I accidently rented a shitty movie, called Darkness. Oh well, we watched it, and left it confused, like why did the ghosts haunt the kid, when in fact it was his dad who they wanted. Oh well. So we left salt lake city, after stopping by the great salt lake, and lemme tell you there is a lot of fucking salt in that city, damn. So I drove all the way from salt lake city to reno, we then made the decision, since we never planned on getting a hotel in SLC, that we'd hang out in reno for like 5 hours, get dinner, do some gambling, to waste some time, so we could get to san fran about 6 am, and hopefully get a "free" day of sleep. we figured that we'd try to get in a place early, like 6 am, and get a very early checkin. I knew we did it in fresno when sammy, and all of us went there, but we stopped at like 4 places and they were all dicks, "we dont allow check ins till 3pm" so we were looking around for like 2 hours, and finally found a holiday inn in san pablo, that let us check in early (to explain better, instead of checking in at the normal time of 3pm, he let us check in at 6am, so we got 8 hours of hotel stay for free, more or less, yay for Raj, he is the man!) So today (sunday) we woke up at 3pm, and took a few hours to get ready, and drove into san fran. It was cool, went to pier 39 and ate some food, and toured the pier, it was cool, heard the seals grunting in the distance, ARR!, ARR! We almost ran out of gas, because we were trying to find the BART station, (*tickle break, ok back*) and got lost, and then decided to drive into the city, and we were on empty for like 20 minutes, and finally found a gas station, fantastic. So finally got back to the hotel room, and am, now typing this entry, more to follow. Ever been to san fran, tell me what we should do!
-Mike
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| So, it's been awhile |
[03 Oct 2005|02:24am] |
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So, I havent wrote in awhile, i suck, get over it.
Got a car, sweet shit, a 95 volkswagon jetta, with a kick ass sunroof. I think its been like a month and a half, two monthes since i got it, not really current info, but i dont think ive updated since before.
Well, what a summer, went to the rens fest twice, its os cool, a bit boring with some of the shopping, but we saw the r rated tortuga brothers, and that shit is hilarious.
Wentg the the bar "Drink" in uptown with adam, and some old cub people. It was cool, talked to a bunch of "marines" but they ended up being a bunch of assholes,.so they went the the smoking patio, so we left them alone.
Going to maplewood west cub foods to do some NCR fastlane training, they are just getting it, so they asked if any qualified employees could help, and responded to the email right away =) It wil be nice to work in another cub, and help them. Its a long drive though, that will suck.
me and amantevida will not see each other for awhile, i miss her cutness around here, especially after coming home at 2 am =) So we are going on vacation the 21st through the nov 1st, yay going to cali, san fran area. Ive been there twice, but it will be super cool with christina.Sometimes it seems like you cannot believe someone like her would want to hangout with a weirdo like me, but she does, somehow. I sometimes just stare at her picture on my nightstand, and think about her when she's making a 100 piece chicken order for someone, while at work. san fran will be good for us, sometimes i think we spend time with each other, but not together with doing other things. Im glad she likes me, cause i like her =) So anyways I think im leaving now, its late, and i have to prolly have to bust my ass tomorrow, like today. Peace out
-Mike
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[08 Jun 2005|05:00am] |
So I feel a lot of better about thimgs, Im glad everyone is here to make me feel better. I hope i didnt hurt to many feelings, but sometimes I think I need to go off, and bitch a little. I love most of you Be happy
Apple switching to intel chips? I never thought i'd see the day, but alas it is here, intel macs shipping 2006
Also, had to mention this site amanda from work !HERE! You all have to read it!
Ok, I'm tired, bedtime, night all, I'll try to write more (dont I always say that?)
Love you!
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[06 Jun 2005|11:40pm] |
As I sit here, and think about my life, I cannot for the life of me, think of any point in my life I would consider "bad" but for some reason, latley, I have been feeling extremly depressed. I feel passionless with all my prusuits in life. I am very confused about my personal relationships, not just with the girl, but with everyone. Do they really like me, or do they have something to gain from me by being friendly? My relationship with my girl is becoming more and more dramatic. I enjoy her company, but sometimes feel smothered by her attention to me. Is this making me unhappy, I dont think so. I am very unhappy with work, it seems that they like what I do there, but no one cares enough to help me along the way. I also think that the fun and happy days of mike are gone, as latley I feel very serious, and the less I laugh, the more I cry. I have never cried so much in my life, as I have recently. I cry secretly at night when I'm alone, and cry sometimes in public; try as I might, I cannot seem to hold back the tears. I just cannot figure out WHY i am so emtional. Is it because I am scared, is it because im depressed, or is it because im 25 and have no foreseeable direction in life? I feel like I need to get my shit together, but even if I had all that, would I feel happy? It doesnt seem to be an issue with my girl, even though I am sure she will read way too much into this, and blame it all on herself. I am so confused what I want in this relationship. I do love this girl, but is she what I am looking for in a wife? If i cannot seemingly spend all my waking hours with her now, how am I going to do it in the future? I have a feeling that this question has been asked by many people in the history of man in general. I am happy, I do enjoy spending time with her, but I guess I hate having to say Im sorry all the time, and explain myself for something I think doesnt deserves so much attention. I guess I just dont know what I want in life, and the ONLY thing I am sure of is her feelings for me. She often says that she loves me, and wants to spend her life with me. I not sure that I have those feelings in me anymore, as I said, all my passion has been sucked out of me. I AM scared, I am uncertain, and I am sure that my life has to change soon. I just dont know how much longer things in my life can stay the way they are, and have me maintain a level of sanity that I need to fool the people around me. At my job, I am a Customer Service Manager, so I deal with the public at large. The fucking public is a bunch of coniving assholes, who want everything for free, and they dont seem to care about who they hurt in the process. If I'm called an asshole by anothr one of these people, I think I am going to snap, and loose my job. Will that make me feel better? Most likely, yes, but then I wont have a job, and be even more unhappy. I also need a car, very very badly. I think a lot of my problems stem from me being stuck at my house, with nothing to do but smoke pot, and write in livejournal to a bunch of people who either dont give a fuck, or by the 3 people who read my journal. I guess that lj just provides a ananymous way to express my feelings that otherwise i'm to afraid to say to the people that really care about me. I have a list of things that need to be done by summers end, and if i cannot complete these things, then i might just have to disappear from my life, and just pop up somewhere else and stasrt my life over.
Quit Smoking everything
Get a car
Decide what I want in my current relationships
Quit my fucking job
Like I said before baby, this is not about you. You are always there for me, and I just need to get things off my chest. I 'm sorry If i made you cry, but writing this entry has been the hardest thing I have done in a while, and barely finshed it without crying.
I luv all the people who honestly care about me, and fuck ALL the people who are assholes at Cub Foods in Crystal, MN,. both customers, and employee's (you know who you are) I hope you all die painful deaths, as you all slowly kill me everyday.
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| Shed a tear, I'll be missing you... |
[29 May 2005|03:43am] |
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Its seems pretty odd when I am compelled to write in this thing I call a journal. Recently it has bothered me that my beloved middle school, was torn down, to make condo's no less. It bothers me for some good reasons, and some bad reasons. T.L.C or Technology Learning Campus was there as a technology school, instead of being a sports school. I know everything I know about computers because of it. I remember right as you walked into TLC there was a downstairs, which crept underneath the school, thats where we went for Archery (rumor has it they used to shoot shotguns down there) To the right was Robbinsdale community center. It had a workout room (connected to the school gyms) and it even had a singles hangout area, me and some friends, Jeff Paterson, got a tour once during our lunch hour. We also had a teacher Mrs Kim (7th grade), who left on maternity leave, and we got a sub, Mr Lind (I think?) and we set up a greenhouse in the courtyard. It was very cool, and I loved every minute of that. Oh the memories, I keep remembering more as I write. TLC was my home away for home for 4 years, and now its gone, this makes me sad. I can still remember exactly what it looks like, down to the pop can that was on the roof, viewable from the lunchroom, for 3 and a half years. Sadly, I heard one of my favorite teachers there Mr. Kyle (8th grade) hung himself a year or so back. He was one of those teachers who inspired you, and would always have an ear for you. I hope his soul wasn't too tortured, since hanging yourself is a pretty desperate act. I also remember, when I was in 5th grade(I was 10, 15 years ago, eeech!) The "big deal" was to kiss in the hallway between classes, and how I then longed for that to be me. But I have now found my kissyface, and I'm very happy. I'm sure when she reads this, and realizes what time it was posted, she is going to be mad at me. You know its funny, that all the memories of TLC seem bigger then the building was. I can remember a million and one things about it, but when it came down to it, the building was only a block long, which to this day, seems very small. I also found my favorite band when i was going to there, Bad ReIigon, jeff Paterson bought a CD called Recipe for Hate (Sep 93), and I have been a punk rocker since then, I never turned back, I loved the stuff, not for how it sounded, but for the message, its the first music I really understood. The track, American Jesus, says so much about american idealisms "I don't need to be a global citizen, cause I backed by nationality, I'm a member of a growing populous, we enforce our popularity" Looking up thats cd's release date blows me away now, I was 13 at the time, sometimes I wish I could go back, but I dont miss being riddiculed by everyone, like was the case..
I also remember in 8th grade, the last day, me and my bro, Dave and our friend Tim Ferrian, skipped out (while all the other kids were at valley fair, more on this later) and went hanging out in robbinsdale, namely mcdonalds (that was before they moved it right off of 42nd ave). Apparently everyone was very worried we were gone, and half the school admin looking for us everywhere, we didnt try to hide from anyone, so it was kinda silly they missed us. Then there were those one teachers who you will always remeber, like Jesse Lee, and Richard Kirkham. All very different, and all very unique. I still run into people at the ol work that I went to school with there, and it's a nice thing, it reminds me of simpler times for me. Well, TLC you are gone, and i just want you to know that you will always have a peice of my heart.
Sadly, I don't remember much of high school, because thats what it was for me "Hi School" I started smoking the last day of freshman year, and now, at the age of 25, am starting to turn my back on my green friend. The other night I finally realized that it was making me fat and out of shape, and generally lazy and unproductive. It's still fun once and a while, but I think it has, in my past, gotten out of control and I suppose its about time I finally grow up, and decide what I want to do in my life. I'm 5 years from 30, and I still don't know what I want to do with it. I have some good idea's, but other things need to happen before any of that life can happen.
Well, thanks for listening, and please, if you have a TLC memory, add it to the comments!
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| Star Wars a Go-Go |
[19 May 2005|03:11am] |
Well saw Episode three tonight with the lady and sammy. Everything went pretty much according to how i thought it would be, but some highlights...
In the Mace Windo fight with Palpatine, they broke the window, very cool. The two greatest fights between palpatine and yoda, and obi-wan and andikin. overall, a very nice movie, and ties the series together nicely.
On another note, I got rid of my Kyocera 7135 and got a super sweet treo 600!
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I think i'll choose the treo 600. So, its pretty cool, does all my geeky things i like. I hooked up QNC usage on it, but I think verizon is going to charge me for it, bastards. Well, thats enough for me, it''s late, and I'm tired. Goodnight all, see you all, peace!
-me
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My name is michael, I think I am cool. Just wanted to say hi! I am going to go rub my sexy body now.
love and lube,
Michael
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| Anyone want a ride? |
[30 Apr 2005|03:42am] |
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Went to go see Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy with the girlie tonight, it was pretty damn cool, and Mos Def kocks ass. Went to Redwing last weekend with the girlie, it was a good chance to get together and have fun without interuption for a few days. Went to a bunch of independant coffee shops, and lemme tell you, the are much better atmosphere, and have better coffee then starbucks. Also walked up Barns Bluff, went out to eat at a bunch of cool places, and drank some wine in the hotel room. The first night we got a little dingy hotel room, wasn't that great, but was small. They said it was a King bed, it was more like a full, and the place was delapidated, and gross. the next day we went to a days inn, which was next to goodhue county prison, ha! Watched Sybil, the movie. What the fuck are rong with these people, that movie was twisted, and it was based on a true story. I havent seen the girl for a few days, up until tonight; Its both lonely, and relaxing. I miss my girl, she has to know that, but she thinks that i'm glad to get rid fo her for a few days. It is nice to have some freedom, but that doesnt mean I dont still want her to be in my thoughts, of course im thinking of her, but its nice to be by yourself and get your thoughts organized. *NEWS FLASH* the georgia women who was missing, after going for a walk at night, was found alive in New Mexico, thank god, it's about time we get a happing ending to a bad story. One almost has to think it was set up to get people joyful, abit for a few days about this miracle. We'll its almost 4 am, and im getting tired, good night all, and I'll try to write more (i know i always say that) OOOOH, before I forget:
Summer List
Flying a Kite.
Walk around Eagle lake again.
!Get a Car!
Watch the Sun come up.
Go Camping.
Miami
Spend the night @ christina house =P
Transfer to another store.
Learn to write the schudule @ work
Ok thats it, any additions?
P.S. Someone owes me a pair of panties!
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| Travel-a-hoy! |
[16 Apr 2005|01:45am] |
So, me and the girlie have been planning a few trip lately, should be fun. First its off to red wing, to treasure island casino, for her belated birthday from April 22-25. Then its off to miami in july. I hope i have enough to pay my car insurance, thats coming up at the end of April. oh well, good times, tomorrow is like day 4 or 5 of 10, then off to redwing, yay!
Ok, enough for now, getting late, love yea all!
-Mike
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| Ok, Ok, I'll update |
[13 Apr 2005|01:52pm] |
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So, walked around Eagle Lake it was fun, a few miles I think, it was nice to get out and do something.
Payed a bill I guess i had missed, hundred nine bucks, so sad. Got my days off for me and </a></b></a>amantevida trip to somewhere. I think it was decided, but i dont remember. Cleaned my room, did some laundry. The girl has been helping me with it, which is nice, i just hate it, id rather be doing anything else, but alas, it always there. Whats up rachel, saw you updated, still rocking with the boy. thats cool. You seem to be having fun, which is important. Hopefully some shows coming up... Less then Jake on 04/16 Lenny Kravitz on 05/04. Well, lots of work, like 10 days in a row, boo hoo. Ok later all, see you thursday night bade, peace!
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[16 Mar 2005|03:14pm] |
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So, today is a big day for me. Me and amantevida are celebrating our 2 year anniversary. She means a hell of a lot to me, and I think sometimes I take her for granted. I always enjoy her company, and always have fun, it just seems sometimes we talk to much about the bad times, and not about the good times. Today should be fun, she is coming over soon, and were gonna go hang out. I hope we can stop at he mall, I need to buy her something. She said not to buy each other gifts, but then she goes out and buys me a bunch of stuff, what is a boy to do?
Also, tomorrow is saint patty's day, free bus rides on MTC! Think I'll goto Tooties on Lowry, and get some cabbage rolls, yummy!
Ok, Went to goldfinger, and flogging molly, I'll talk more about it later, gotta go, see you all!
-Mike
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So, its been awhile since I posted.
Went to a nice dinner with the girlie for valentines day, had some wonderful beef tips, some lasagna, and some great food, and company.
Got a kick ass dvd rack, a much needed addition to my room, and a cool lamp for my "night stand"
Work has sucked lately, getting sick of it, I think I need to transfer. Got a cool receiver, got my computer, PS2, and T.V. all hooked together, pretty nifty.
I also recently received a fantastic red dresser, from christina dad. He hated it, but its super nice, and very well built. I threw out that dresser and a girl I know gave me a few years back. Cleaned up my room, and did some dishes tonight, my bro would be kinda pissed if he came home, and the kitchen is a mess. Changed my livejournal picture, yay!
OK, promise I'll write more, I've been lame but I hope that is soon over =)
-me
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Sometimes I will see something on TV that really freaks me out. Last night I saw some orpahanges in romania during the 80's Video here Very scary stuff.
Well, been awhile since I wrote, so time to play catch up. Christmas was most excellant, got a very nice comforter, a duvay? I also got the new ps2 slim, rock on. i use that thing all the time, its super sweet. Bought myself a Nintendo DS, thats nifty as well, playing mario 64 at the moment, and also playing final fantasy 1, and playing Legend of Zelda, minish cap(a prequel). So, having lots of good wasted time doping that.
Had a fun new years, went to a great dinner with amantevida that was very nice, much worth the 30$ or so we paid for it. Must remind myself to do that again.
So, working alot so me and the girl are going to wisconsin dells for 3-4 days, from jan 28th to feb 2. Hanging out with that troublemaker mutinyinheaven7 on wednesday, prolly just catch a drink, and some food after work, should be fun. Ok, well, its getting late, but I promise I'll write more often, just seems my time has been slim latley. OH wait, forgot to mention, christinas in arizona "Hi Christina!" I hope she is having fun, enjoying her warm weather, bah, it was 32 today, actually warm (thats crazy!) Ok, gotta work at noon, see you all later. Love you baby!
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[28 Nov 2004|02:04am] |
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On this thanksgiving day (belated) we have much to be thankful for. My family has always been there for me, through thick and thin. Like my car accident, i thought id hear a lot of guff about it. I also have very good friends, Toby, Adam, Sam, and Steve. I feel like if I ever needed anything, they would be there for me.
And then there is my girl, amantevida....
Throughout my life, I have always felt underneath everyone else. I was a geek in middle school, I was a geek in High School, and even today, I am a geek. I was never proud of my geekyness, until I met her. She makes me feel like an equal in life. It is also very nice to know that someone loves me, really loves me, which is more then I can say about past relationships. She is my world, and sometimes I think, she doesn't think that. Baby, I want to spend the rest of my life with you. You need to know this. Baby, thank you for being there everyday for me. I need you in my life, wether I like it or not =P
For every time we see each others eyes
I know that you're the one, for me, forever
Today, I know, that, sometimes I might not say
The words I say are "I love you"
Good morning baby
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[22 Nov 2004|11:55pm] |
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Got a car on 10/26/04 it was a cutless seirra 92. I say was because i crashed it 0n 11/19/04. Now im carless again, which sucks. Oh well. Lifes been good lately, so i cant complain.
And to the meat and potatoes of the journal entry
Needs:
1 running car
1 kickass comforter
34/34 pants, slacks for work
large collar shirt (i will be measured soon!)
good quality boxers, large, not the target 3 pack crap.
Queen matress bed frame, not the metal box one that comes with it, a nice sturdy one.
Queen Bed sheets.
Good quality queen pillows/covers
Wants
Nintendo DS
Madden 2005 for DS
Mario for DS
Ace Combat 5 PS2
Bedside lamp
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| So... |
[13 Nov 2004|01:52am] |
I think sometimes my girlie writes stuff so I have to update my journal, which isn't too bad I guess. What she said really makes me sad though. "I don't think Mike finds me sexy anymore" How can she even say this? She is the most beautiful person I've ever met, in every way. Feel loved baby, because I do love you.
Anyways, I havent written since chicago, so lets play catch-up.
Went to First Ave on Oct 31st in my peter pan costume. Two days later, they filed for chapter 11 and went under, crazy. Hopefully one day it will be back. Anyways, I promise I'll write later, but its going late, goodnight world, and I love you baby
-Mike
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